Agesssss x

well, it has been ages since my last update...

it's as though i went MIA for the whole of November eh ?

Haha no worries im still ALIVE.

and i am actually

enjoying it very much. I had my first assesments and guess what i got?

2A* 4A 1C 2D

Amazing innit?

well i got a D for islamic and maths...

other then that... hmmm...

I'm on holidays now, for another 6 days ;)

yes bitch's be Jealous

I'm gonna be leaving for Austria this month for Christmas

Then hopefully if Mama and Papa say yes i will be headed to Thailand with my schoool

.x)

Well yes i am dating now.

his name is Mezi.

He's 18.

He's smart and charming ;)

He came over yesterday and met my parents

we went for some shisha and we chilled at home the entire dayy

haha, lets not escape the fact that he lives in freaking Sharjah which is like an hour away

haha its still fresh but we sure do like Love each other ;)

Ohhh i was in JBR todayy

met up with a bunch of friends and we chilled had dinner at hardees

Guest List

Haitham

Salim
Santaraa

Shrimpyy

Farooq

Aj

Connie

Ali

Saood

and soooo many more..

there was like 30 people

lets just say it was an outdoor PARTY

Too bad my Baby wasnt there :(

I miss himm...

anywayss

i will try and update more often okay.

ill tryyyy...

Mwa xxxx

loves

Dead x

it's quite amazing that i haven't updated this poor abandoned thing :/
i dunno what hit me to actually update this thing.
well here i am :D
hmm where should i start eh?

first.
i am fine and doing okay actually.
no longer in fucked up reltionships.
i'll be taking papa's advice on this.
i'll happily stay single carefree and funky ;)

second.
i went to KEVA .
its a club next to chi@the lodge.
hahaha
your thinking how the eff did i get my ass in a CLUB :p
not much to it actually.
the gurl throwing the birthday*sanjana*
her dad OWNS the place ;)

third.
there is no third actually..
oohhh except that im in first language english.
and its kinda fucking my brain,hahaha
so many shit
BUSSINESS is okayy
so is ECONOMICS ;)
<3

overall everythings been good:)
thank GOD xD

MWA x
ill try updating more often

Love Drunk ?

I cant belive i am actually going to be blogging at this time of the night xD
but i cant get my mind off this one thing
how is it that to me being DRUNK and being IN LOVE is the same shit.

let me explain.
see when you get drunk your usually hungover the next day . right?
same shit goes to being in love. don't you think so?
your in love, it lasts for a while then the pain you get after breaking up is the hangover.
think about it. i mean reallyy think about it.

I'll split it into two categories.

Being Drunk:
once we are drunk, obviously we enjoy ourselves without thinking of anything else accept having fun.
we do stupid shit and just savor that moment
that moment, to some, makes them happy.
then we wake up the next day with a Hangover and the Headaches
saying how much we regret getting drunk in the first place.


Being In Love:
We love being In Love,
it apparently gives us happiness and joy
it supposedly gives us that feeling of butterflies in your stomach
you do things that you enjoy doing with your bf/gf
then when its over.
BAMMM!
your struck with depression and the feeling of pure pain.
the feeling that you wished and regretted ever falling In Love with that person
trusting him/her with everythin


Now try and combine them both and compare it.
isn't it practically identical?
happiness,joy,fun-hangover,pain,depression
both leading to regret

there i've said whats on my mind at 2.30 am
and i have school in about 5 hours x

loves.
x

boo ;)

since its been ages :D

thought i would Blog a lil for my fellow readers..

Doubt i have any thoughh ;)

well nothin much has happened to be honest

so no point in blaberrin about my nothingness :D

heres a link to a song i am totallyy in love with

introduced to me by my shrimppyyy Nouna <3>

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=STkzdgW7ONs

*click it*

you know you want to

Niteyy Night Babiess

i Need sleep

Its 5.30am

Mwa.

x

simply pain...

when you feel as though you are in love, and your still at such a young age...
its nothing but a load of BULL...
he would say anything to get something from you
and no matter what anyone says it will never last
at the end of the day its only pain and tears for you
while he walks away with the prize
at such a young age we have to go through so much stress and problems
i dont know about everyone out there though :/
i know i am feeling thiss way
thats why i decided to blog and share how i feel.
the SMILE is fake
underneath it lies pain
but who would be able to see it if u always cover it up ?
he left for good and i feel empty
he told me to forget him and i feel broken
Nouna and Aamir are right
we have to move on...
but why does it hurt so damn much?
fuck it
x

sharjahh xD

im currantly in shrarjah with ma best friend NOUNA :)

haha finally i am away from home..

.something that i need for a looooong time:/

been here for about 4 days nows

we went to DFC a couple days ago and chilled there

everyone was either being FAKE or beig all so WEIRD :P

we went hom bla bla bla.

so im just updating to tell ya'll that i am not at home

but at NOUNAS

hahahhahaha

weeeeeeeeeeeeee xxx

FREEEDOOOOOMMMMM

LOVES TO ALL

Mwa.

x

summer :'(

well as you all know..*or dont know*

i am in DUBAI

no i am not gonna be going anywhere for summer after all

there has been a tragic reason which i would not really like to share with EVERYONE

all i can say is i am spending summer in dubai

my 16th GERMANY getaway isnt happening after all

mama couldnt get a refund

so 3000 bucks gone :'(

well there are the ups

i am staying and chillin with some of my friends here

been shopping coz of the GIANT SALE!

and going out here and there

i dont think i am gonna be updating much thoough

just havent really been in the mood ya know

im going to be in sharjah to stay with NOUNA

i think i might be there for a week or so :D

at least im out of this place ya know

i wanna escape my chores for a while

and see how they can live without me cleaning up after them :/

well ill update soon..

we hope**

lovess..

xoxo

yesterdays bliss ;)

well yesterday i went out with a bunch of friends.. :D

we went to ibn batutta and chilled for a while..

went ROLLER BLADING

watched THE PROPOSAL

haha it was soooo funny :p

i must sayy wasnt expecting it to be so funny

me and rishi was laughing our asses off

o0oh me and courtney went into a competition for the SINGSTAR on PS3

we got the highest score..

we just have to wait and see if we win :D

anyways

arived home at around 12am after the movie

salooh came and brought me dinner then we hung out in marina till late..

that was the day

hahah even if there MIGHT be more

i dont KISS AND TELL ;)

can you people believe i UPDATED xD

hahaha

talk about joblesss... <3

lo0ong time eh?

well haha i know i havent been updating lately..
not to say that i dnt have time:/
its just that i havent been in the mood to blog you know..
so once again i am sorry :(
well at least im here now and i am blogging...

FIRST
well nicole and dina had a birthday celebration
and so here are some pics for your enjoyment :D
DETAILS
happened at JBR beach
tons of people cam
music and drinks
enjoyed it :D
nicole slept ova ;)


SECOND
since it took me almost an hour to upload those 3 pics
i aint uploadin anymore for the night
i guess i'll just be typing down the actions ;)
haha
went to a FKME party which ended up being amazing
well salooh came to pick me up then we went
arrived around 9
party had a DJ *who is a good friend of mine*
drinks..
MUSIC
haha
salooh sent me back around 2 am
awww what a gentleman :p
whatever *cough*

IM GONNA BE FLYING TO GERMANY IN ABOUT 9 DAYS <3
cant wait to go and see eric gonna be there for about 6 weeks :D awwwwww
details :
leaving on the 18th july
flying from dubai to frankfurt then to berlin
thats where eric will pick me up
stay a couple days in berlin then go back to eric's
:D
arriving back on the 31st

well thats that people
its 6.15 am right now and i am seriously BORED
i think ama go and head to bed aight:D
ya'll take care and enjoy your summer...
if your lucky i'll update if not then i wont :/
no promises

PS
i got my results :/
lets just say i didnt do too well :(
i got
1-A*
1-A
1-C
and the rest-B

i got a C for FRENCH xD
at least i passed that!!
weeeiiiuuuuhhhh -_-"

loves x

summer time <3

the finals are finally over! thank god for that..
and i can smell the summer air around the corner
as you all know i have been doing nothing but studying my ass off...
and now that the finals are over i am freeee... :)
the weekend consisted of some party-ing!

first
i went to salmans party *SUGAR HIGH*
wasnt all that amazing but i was with some friends and it ended up fine :)
salooh picked me up at 9 and we went and reached there around 9-10..
then we had some mc'D and we sent some of his friends home back to mirdiff..
by the time we came back to marina it was about 3am alreadyy...
we went to the beach and chilled..
i went home at around 5.30am :D
ahhhhh... :)

second

i had my 16th birthday gathering!
haha yeaa well it wasnt really a party if i might say so myslef :p
it was held at the beach and about 18 people came :)
it was fucking HOT and the gurls simply stripped and went into the water :)
haha we had no music coz my speakers werent working
but we ended up crazking some jokes and entertaining ourselves :D
after that we went to hardees for some fooood XD
everyone went back so only a bunch of us went back to marina
chilled like old times actually <3>
aamir is left for london *i think*
wont be seeing him till august :'(
the gurls slept over btw
NIKOL
PAIGE
NOUNA
haha it was a hell of a night :)
thanks guys for coming and staying eventghough it sucked!
lovee you babyyyy's

PROOF#1

PROOF#2

PROOF#3

well school isnt officially out yet though:/
so im going to school tomorrow :D

i'll see u bitches in school eh?
loveeee youuuu xD

finals = suicide

well.. as you all have noticed i havent been updatin my blog.. :p
its not coz im lazy this time..
FINALS HAVE BEEN GOIN ON FOR ABOUT A WEEK NOW
i have been doin nothin but study :'(
there will be a party hopping weekend as soon as the finals end :)

will update u on anythin as soon as the finals are over..
love youuuuu x <3

SCHEDULE

sunday: english
monday: science
tuesday: french
wednesday: history
thursday: geography

*WEEKEND*

sunday: maths
monday: arabic
tuesday: islamic

5 DOWN 3 TO GO

wish me luck babies xD

sweet 16 <3

YES YES YES
I AM FINALLY 16 BABY =)

i know it has been a reaally long time but i am still alive if u guys are wondering :p
was super busy with the travellin*blog about it later* and studyin for ma finals.. :/
finals startin next weeka nd i am so scared.. :((
mama and papa has gifted me my trip to germanyy!!
so ERIC im on my way babyy <3

we went to thank god its fridays (TGIF) for my bbirthday dinner :)
was amazing and could not have asked for anythin more perfect :))

maaz and tannya and a bunch of ma friends gave me a surprise thing in school the other dayy :))
i was so touched coz i wasnt wished the night before...
nikol and kim were theonly ones who called andwished me
i found out that it was all planned.. lol
i was fuckin down and so emo -_-"
and when break time came they made this HUGE surprise!!
thank you guys soo much! :)
i love youuu... <3

happy birthdayy papa :)
may 10

ooh by the way i will update about ma vacation to istanbul kayy...
loves to all! <3

lifes a bitch...

well what can i say about life right now...
besides the fact that all i have ever done is help people...
and actually try my best to be there for whoever it is that needs someone...
and what is it that i get at the end of the fuckin day?
backstabbers...hatred...lies....pain
sometimes i think that being nice is no longer worth it
ur workin ur ass of as someone who is there
and eventually u are the one that ends up crying...
no matter how much u love that person, or how much u care for that person...
that person would end up hurting you the most
that person would littrelly break u...
i would NEVER create the same mistake...
i dont ever want to be so god damn close to someone where it leads to the point of suicidal
its great that i have friends and that i hope they wont turn their backs on me...
but who knws?
i thought this one person would be there for me forever and care for me
but at the end of the day it all ends up in heart break...
everyone is like.. oooh ELIQA... ALWAYS HAPPY AND SMILLING =)
well guess what ladies and gentleman do u knw how fuckin hard it is for me to put on that face?
to walk in school and smile away and help other people?
how fucked up it is for me to have to hide how i feel...
because i have to be strong for every single person put there that needs me...
someone fucks me up and at the end of the day what do i do?
i forgive and forget
thats just who i am...and i cant change that...
but im sooo tired of being the only gurl EVERY-fuckin-ONE ssteps on...
the people out there should never take a person for granted
beacuse they may seem strong and happy on the outside..
but theyre bleeding in the inside...
and never judge a person

let the person live her/his life...

I FINALLY GOT IT ALL OUT
*wheeiuuhh*

the class ;)

i simply HAD to put this on here ;)
HAHAHHA
this is the gurls i spend EVERYDAY with...
from 8a.m-2p.m


# 1
WE'RE ALL SOO READY HUH ?
hahahahha
IT TOOK US ALMOST AN HOUR TO ACTUALLY GET INTO THIS POSITION :D


THIS IS #2
this is the REAL us :D
haha... we did this most of the time coz none of us could get ready :p
HAHAHA

spring breaks over :p

and so my darling readers :p
spring break has just ended :/
and now i am off to school tomorrow...
wow...
well what has been happenin since the break started ?
well LOADS bitches x

we have the 3 A.M group..
which consists of
the sluts
*
nikol
paige
rachel
sean
yamir
ME

haha
no idea why we call it that though :/
haha randomness runs in my system ;)
anyways
there was a couple parties here and there...
was always in gardens and ibn
ooh lets not forget marina ;)
anyways..
i dont really feel like typing fuckloads today
we'll see how school goes tomorroe :p
love ya loads ;)

*listenin to: lollipop luxury-jefree starr*

feelings

well right now im not in the best of moods..
let me just simply express what i'm currently feelin...

how many times have i been stepped on?
how many times have i allowed myself to be stepped on?
yet i still continue doing whatever it is i do..
i love helping people...
i love listenin to their problems and be there for my friends..
but when i need them..
when i need a shoulder to cry on...
i never ask for theyre help..
i simply am left alone..
the thing is i have been hurt sooo many times ...
dear readers...
you probably would not even be able to imagine how i feel right now.
being a teenager is not just full of complications :p
haha but eventually there will be a time where ur just stuck..
right now i am thinking to myself what is it that i did to deserve such a feeling...
i feel empty and alone...
yes i have good friends around me..
but why is it that i still feel alone?
i am always there...
no matter who,where or when...
give me a call and i am there ...
fuck it i swear!
i just wanna scream and give up right now..

-listening to-
*me,myself & I-beyonce*

options!

today i had my options event :D
since i am moving on to grade 10...
i will be doing 2 years of the IGCSE course ...
these are the subjects i have chosen to study for the next 2 years...
hoping it would help me in my career choice...
i am going into the MEDIA..
filmmakin, producing, directing...
shit like that :p

okayy there was a huge thing i had to decide...
it was between BUSINESS STUDIES or ENGLISH LITERATURE
the benefits of business was that it would help me in communications,managing, advertising
and other shit...
in english it would help me in communications, advertising, hospitality managment
and other crap...
so i was TORN...
but at the end of the day i have chosen BUSINESS :D
yaaaaaaay
year 10...
HERE I COME..
<3

SOOO....thats all am gonna blog about todayy babies :D
loves to all!!
xoxo

long time :p

well well well...
it has literally been ages since i have updated this DEAD blog :(
i apologies for my lazy-ness :p
well there has been a lot going on since the last post...
hmm lets start with peggy's party...
it was beyond amazing...
shit happened but overall it was a blast!!

next

lets talk about kimi...
one of my best friends kim has left for south africa...
missing her like crazyy... but trying to keep strong though...
umm she left early this month...
am taking it kinda hard...
but with technology now... all i have to do is call or turn on a webcam...
so its much easier then it would be if it were 50 years ago...lol

next

babes went to paris with the school about a week ago!!
he came back last thursdayy... they went for about a week ...
haha school trip:D
he is leaving for iran tomorrow though for 2 weeks :(
*thats what he told me*
am gonna miss him :(

next

am in shit with the parents...
but i am behaving and hopefully in time will be forgiven...
feel fuckiin shitty though :(
but what to do ...
once u fuck up..
u gotta face whatever it is that comes to u...

next

i am going to GERMANY for summer!!!
to go see my sexyyy ERIC
lol...
tiffany is joining!!!
so am gonna be with tiff and eric again..
its like a reunion
cant fuckin wait though!
DAMN

next

mirna and babes birthday was last fridayy
we had a blast
guests were :
mirna
babes
nikol
aamir
rachel
utsa
mehvash
tannya
sha li
neiha
ME

what happened that niight was fairly simple
chilled in JBR
had dinner in RUBY TUESDAYS
chilled somemore :D
TADA
simple ;)
BUT TONS OF FUN!!!

anyways thats the recents!
i will not promise anythin for now...
but i will try and keep this blog ALIVE
:D

please hear what i'm not saying

A STORY FROM
CHICKEN SOUP FOR THE TEENAGE SOUL

don't be fooled by me
don't be fooled by the face i wear
for i wear a mask, a thousand masks
masks that i am afraid to take off
and none of them is me
pretending is an art that's second nature to me
but don't be fooled
for gods sake don't be fooled
i give you the impression that i'm secure
that confidence is my name and coolness is my game
that the waters calm and i'm in command
and that i need no one
but don't believe me
my surface may seem smooth but my surface is my mask
ever-varying and ever concealing
beneath lies no complacence
beneath lies confusion and fear and aloneness
but i hide this, i don't want anybody to know it

i panic at the thought f my weakness and fear being exposed
thats why i frantically create a mask to hide behind
a nonchalant sophisticated facade, to help me pretend
to shield me from the glance that knows
but such a glance is precisely my salvation
my only hope and i know it
that is, if its followed by acceptance
id it is followed by love
its the only thing that can liberate me from myself
from my own prison walls
from the barriers i so painstakingly erect
its the only thing that will assure me
of what i cant assure myself
that i am really worth something
i dont like to hide
i dont like to play superficial phony games
i want to stop playing them
i want to be genuine and spontaneous and me
but you've gotta help me
you've gotta hold out your hand
even when its the last thing i seem to want
only you can wipe away from my eyes
the bland stare of the breathing dead
only you can call me into aliveness

each time you're kind and gentle and encouraging
each time you try to understand because you really care
my heart begins to grow wings, very small wings
very feeble wings
but wings!
with your power to touch me into feeling
you can breathe life into me
i want you to know that

who am i, you may wonder
i am someone you know very well
for i am every man you meet
and i am every woman you meet

written by : Jill Zevallos-Solak

past & future <3

past

okayyy.... so what have i been doinn??
ummm simply everything and nothing together :p
we had our sports day a couple days agoo... i won silver for shot put ;)
hmm then one that was over a bunch of us started
dancing in the middle of the field XD
nouna was the DJ...so that should explain the range of musicc ;)
ummm what else?
oooh yess babes came over yestedayy and he slept over yet AGAIN :p
i am never tired of that guy...goshh :D
hahhaa it was hilarious though coz he wasnt sleepy and i was fuckin tired
he didnt let me sleep!!!
but eventualyy he fell asleep till like 5 pm!!
we watched umm... *definitely maybe* till about 4am though :/
before that we were chillin on the balcony...
talking and stuff ;)

future

okayyyy XD
peggy's 16th party is tomorrow!!!
i am sooo THERE
it wont be like a massive partyy though...
but lets just say that its gonna be Fun :D
haha... we'll be expectin loud music...food...*ahems*
lol
i'll update about it when i am settled kayy
love to all those bitches out there ;)
<3

*listening to: my life-the game ft lil wayne*

thursday XD

when :

thursday

where :

jumeirah beach residence

why :

un-grounded

hapennings

okay so here is what happened!

i was finally allowed to go out :D

thanks to my daddyyy

anyways, we came back from school on thursdayy to my place..

chilled then around 6

alem, these 2 other guys, and tara came

so all of us *me,kim,babes,nouna,aamir,payam,alem,tara,2 guys*

went to jbr...

THEN

me kimi and babes and payam went to eat at scooshi and the rest came along :D

we had tons of jokes and fun

hahhhaha

ate freakin sushi :D

then after that we went to head to teh beach...

we chilled turned on some mucis and had a party of our own

kim.may and about 15 other ppl came..

so about 20 of us had our own partyyy on the beach :D

then

me and kim and babes went back to my place and chilled at home

aamir came a lil later though ..

had a bit more fun then called it a nigght XD

next dayy..

we slept realllyyy late and probably woke up late too :p

we chilled at home the entire day!!

babes cooked amazing food :D

when i say amazing i mean AMAZING

aamir cam over again and just chilled the entire night at home...

we did a couple things here and there ;)

haha

oooh liaan came!!!

next dayy

papa and mama decided to take us kids to the cinema :D

we watched slumdog millionaire!!

it was lets just say an eye opener ...

it was a realllyyy good movie...

gives all of us that there is hope out there..

loved it :D

aamir joined us again after the movie..

had dinner and chilled at home...

then we called it a night...

babes and kimi went back todayy...

aamir was with us today too after school..

we skipped school though todayy

:p

*wanna see pics?*

check em out on my facebook

too lazyy to upload em here todayy :p

sorryyyyy...

*listenin to: broken strings-james morrison ft nelly furtado*

BUSTED XD

here goes...
lets just say i am currently grounded:(
this is due to the fact that my parents found out that i have been drinkin :p
i am sooo not proud of it.. lol
and i accept my punishment!
seriously ...
anyway...

next

kimi and babes slept over last weekend coz i couldnt leave the house:D
they ended up sacrificing their entire weekend to chill at my place...
and we didnt go out!
omg i love my friends!!

next

babes slept over this weekend again...
i was actually able to go out to jbr on thursday night..
i was soooo happy coz i havent been out for abt a month!!
it felt sooo good to be out:D
i was with aamir and babes... met up with a couple frens in jbr..
chilled till about 2.30am:D
then babes slept ova:D
yesterday night he went to mirdiff... i couldnt go
soo then he came back to my place around 7am slept here.. :D

next

assesment are starting tomorrow!!
been studying :D
seriouslyy... **
anywayss wish me luckk bitch's!!!
coz i fuckin need it..
oooh i got full marks for my history project:D
thanks to megan and banoo;)

okay i am done blogging..:D
will update you on how the assesments went tomorrow:D

thats if i aint to lazzyyy :p
<3

simple weekend ;)

ummm i think it was a thursday when we had this SIMPLE WEEKEND ;)
not too sure about it though...:/

*remembering*

okay it was definitely thursday!

after school:D

who was there??

*nouna
*babes

*armaan

*maaz

*fahad

*karan

*azaan

*camilia

*payam

*ahmed

*kimi

*yousef

*sammie

*marwan

etc ;)

...i think thats it...

actions

okay first we were at ibn... walked there straight after school

hung out at this random place;)

no idea how to describe how to get there :(

hahaha

a bunch of us just chilling and making jokes..

loved it!

hahahah i laughed sooooo hard!!

XD

then

we all walked to gardens..

played some football!!!

haha hung out some more..

more jokes

more laughing

HAHAH

then

me,nouna,babes,azaan

went back to my place..

they slept over:D

and mama had a dinner in mirdiff..

soo free ticket to go see KIMI

we all went togther:D

met up with the UPTOWN guys :D

had MORE FUN

lol...

simple weekend...

but it was beyong amazing ;)

enjoy some pics;)

random laughter alert:D

*wanna see more pics check out my facebook ;)

xoxo

merry x'mas & happy new year :p

.: 2009 :.

okay... i knw its been ages :p
but busyy-ness has overcome my blogging capabilities :p
anyways... lets start with
x'mas
well... lets see.. :/
we had an amazing eve dinner..
we had tons of sausages :D
yummyyy XD
then for christmas dinner we had TURKEYYY <3
babes came over for christmas dinner...
we opened presents on the EVE :P and babes opened his presents on christmas day when he cam over...
he got his spoon and fork from muaa..
and papa gave him a bracelet thingy...
ooh and he got a cereal bowl ;) i got the entire twilight collection :D
and a BRITNEY SPEARS perfume XD
*sexxyyy smelling*
babes got me the latest book...HOST
elli got me necklaces..
elisha and randy got me a guess wallet and a red adidas sweater:D
kimi got me some great earings from aldo :D
YAAAAY

NOW ME MOVE ON TO

NEW YEARS XD

new years was amazing :D
the aunties were all here... and ofcourse we spend time with them on new years :D
there was a party in mirdiff though..
but i didnt go :(
still had fun that night though :D
glad i could spend it with family...
HAHHAH
had great dinner with some wine to top it all off :D
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here are pics :D
enjoy;)

*if u wanna see more pics u gotta check out my facebook :D
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XOXO