its over :'(

well guys,

me and ammar broke up today...

i actually decided that it was time to let him go...

in a way, we remain close friends...

by doing what i did, i have just stopped myself from hurting:(

ammar is an angel... the fact that he tried his best is totally amazing...

but it has been 6 weeks since i last gone out with him...

its not his fault... i cannot be selfish:(

the thing that i ask to myself is...

how does a gurl break up with someone who loves her sooo much?

at least i think he loves me... he tells me he does.. u knw ?

confussion has been lurking in my mind the entire time...

a part of me feels like i did the right thing,

another part of me wants to just cryy...:(

i think ammar will get someone much better, who isnt so demanding.. :/

the thing is i love him... but as a friend...

i have fallen out of love with him :(

i knw it sounds horrible...

like how the f**k could she fall out of love with such an angel?

i hate myself for doing that :/

but i cant go on being unhappy...

and i cant let him continue in this relationship knowing that he will get much more hurt ...

soo i decided to finally make the desicion to end it..

we decided to remain close friends :D

we still see each other everyday in school :/

but we wont be able to do things we used to...

like makin out in the coridors :(

well... i promsed a post about my relationship...

here it is...:/

ps... i am reading TWILIGHT ;p