*sigh*

okay, so here is what happened...

me and ammar is having some time off from each other..

i promise it is not permanent, its just i need some time alone...

the thing with ammar is that i always understand his situations...

when i decided to have this break between us, i was thinking to myself...how fucking dumb am i?

i mean ammar loves me....

at least thats what he says:(

saying the words I LOVE YOU is not that difficult...

its when u show the person...

sometimes u dont even have to say those words...

just by showing how u feel towards them makes u super happy...

i have tried my best to make ammar feel happy...

seriously i have given it my all...

all i want from him is to show me he loves me...

i need him to WANT me,

i need him to NEED me,

i need him to LOVE me...

it would be very selfish of me to tell him to change,,,

but if he cant change then i would just have to accept him the way he is...

the thing with me is, i am IN LOVE with him...

as much as he hurts me, i continue loving him:(

i dunno what the fuck is wrong with me though :/

all i knw is that i am still in love with ammar...

BTW

this weekend is my study/hangout/sleep weekend at kimi's place:p

i am just gonna have fun and forget about this whole ammar thing for a while:/

i will talk to him on sunday and we will see what happens..

i promise to tell you guys whats neww kayy...

for now i wanna sleep:/

nitess all!!

loves

xoxox