lifes a bitch...

well what can i say about life right now...
besides the fact that all i have ever done is help people...
and actually try my best to be there for whoever it is that needs someone...
and what is it that i get at the end of the fuckin day?
backstabbers...hatred...lies....pain
sometimes i think that being nice is no longer worth it
ur workin ur ass of as someone who is there
and eventually u are the one that ends up crying...
no matter how much u love that person, or how much u care for that person...
that person would end up hurting you the most
that person would littrelly break u...
i would NEVER create the same mistake...
i dont ever want to be so god damn close to someone where it leads to the point of suicidal
its great that i have friends and that i hope they wont turn their backs on me...
but who knws?
i thought this one person would be there for me forever and care for me
but at the end of the day it all ends up in heart break...
everyone is like.. oooh ELIQA... ALWAYS HAPPY AND SMILLING =)
well guess what ladies and gentleman do u knw how fuckin hard it is for me to put on that face?
to walk in school and smile away and help other people?
how fucked up it is for me to have to hide how i feel...
because i have to be strong for every single person put there that needs me...
someone fucks me up and at the end of the day what do i do?
i forgive and forget
thats just who i am...and i cant change that...
but im sooo tired of being the only gurl EVERY-fuckin-ONE ssteps on...
the people out there should never take a person for granted
beacuse they may seem strong and happy on the outside..
but theyre bleeding in the inside...
and never judge a person

let the person live her/his life...

I FINALLY GOT IT ALL OUT
*wheeiuuhh*

the class ;)

i simply HAD to put this on here ;)
HAHAHHA
this is the gurls i spend EVERYDAY with...
from 8a.m-2p.m


# 1
WE'RE ALL SOO READY HUH ?
hahahahha
IT TOOK US ALMOST AN HOUR TO ACTUALLY GET INTO THIS POSITION :D


THIS IS #2
this is the REAL us :D
haha... we did this most of the time coz none of us could get ready :p
HAHAHA

spring breaks over :p

and so my darling readers :p
spring break has just ended :/
and now i am off to school tomorrow...
wow...
well what has been happenin since the break started ?
well LOADS bitches x

we have the 3 A.M group..
which consists of
the sluts
*
nikol
paige
rachel
sean
yamir
ME

haha
no idea why we call it that though :/
haha randomness runs in my system ;)
anyways
there was a couple parties here and there...
was always in gardens and ibn
ooh lets not forget marina ;)
anyways..
i dont really feel like typing fuckloads today
we'll see how school goes tomorroe :p
love ya loads ;)

*listenin to: lollipop luxury-jefree starr*

feelings

well right now im not in the best of moods..
let me just simply express what i'm currently feelin...

how many times have i been stepped on?
how many times have i allowed myself to be stepped on?
yet i still continue doing whatever it is i do..
i love helping people...
i love listenin to their problems and be there for my friends..
but when i need them..
when i need a shoulder to cry on...
i never ask for theyre help..
i simply am left alone..
the thing is i have been hurt sooo many times ...
dear readers...
you probably would not even be able to imagine how i feel right now.
being a teenager is not just full of complications :p
haha but eventually there will be a time where ur just stuck..
right now i am thinking to myself what is it that i did to deserve such a feeling...
i feel empty and alone...
yes i have good friends around me..
but why is it that i still feel alone?
i am always there...
no matter who,where or when...
give me a call and i am there ...
fuck it i swear!
i just wanna scream and give up right now..

-listening to-
*me,myself & I-beyonce*